When it’s so near…

There are times when we wait for the perfect time to do something, wait for a certain event to happen before doing our task, but what happens when you realize your one and only opportunity has already passed… Damn!… And what’s worse is that you are not sure if that opportunity could come again… When we let it pass don’t you just hate yourself and want to turn time back… If only it wasn’t as expected as it had been… T_T…

When one walks it seems like his mind floats to other things, he tends to be far from earth and is not able to realize everything that happens around him… WTF?!!?!? Mental Block!… Damn i hate mental blocks… grr… T_T… especially when it causes you to lose your one and only chance… GRRRRR… what if you miss that one and only chance… it passes in front of you and you don’t do anything just keep walking then after a few seconds you realize what you just lost… Something that may never come again…

If you miss one chance make sure you don;t miss the next.

Ewan..Malay..Bka OO.

Ok.. antagal ko na di nagpopost kaya medyo di ko pa rin alam kung paano ko uli uumpisahan…

Bakit ba kung minsan ang hirap naman gawin ng mga ilang bagay? Mga simple na bagay na kahit anong gawin ay di ko magawa… Ewan, nakakaasar.. pinaghihirapan at pinapangako sa sarili pero di naman magawa… napakawalang kwenta… Kanina may nagtanong sa akin, “Bakit mo naman gusto gawin yon?”. Ang sinagot ko, “EWAN.”.. Ewan?!?!?! anu ba namang rason yon? napakawalang kwenta, napaka ewan na sagot. di ko alam, bka naman talgang wala akong rason para gawin yon, para lang yon maporve sa sarili ko na kaya ko un gawin… kung minsan lahat naman tyu napapaisip kung kaya natin gawin to, diba?

Tinanong din sa akin,”Eh kung wala naman pla e bakit ka ganyan? Kung wala na edi dapat wala ka nang pake dba?”.. Ewan di ko alam… ang sinagot ko,”wala nga, pero EWAN, bka meron pa rin konti, pero wala naman dun yon e, gusto ko lang matapos.”… Yan na naman tayo sa ewan, halos andaming tanong sa akin puro ewan sagot ko… pagtinitignan ko ung mga naganap parang ewan din ung buhay ko, bka kaya ewan. Ang buhay ko ay isang malaking EWAN… kundi man “ewan”, “malay” naman ang sagot ko… anu ba yan!?!?!

“Anu kakainin mo?” “Ewan”

“Anu homework?” “Ewan”

“Bakit mali to?” “Malay”

“Meron pa rin ba?” “EWAN”

If you say you don’t care anymore, then you care.

Things I never meant.

There are times when we just don’t intentionally hurt others and sometimes even without us knowing it. It’s unavoidable, one way or another someone will always be offended or hurt when one does things. The only thing we can do is to say sorry to the people who are affected by our doings, though we don’t realize it, there are things that may seem simple for us but will affect others greatly.

Nothing in this world will ever be perfect, not even those who have reached “peace” within himself… There will always be a flaw in the human system, that’s how it is made, it will never be completely functional, never complete. Whatever we do, there will always be a part missing in the puzzle of ife, a part we will always seek. God made us this way, always looking for something, seeking something. Life will be boring if we don’t have a missing part, being perfect is the best thing in life, it is seeking this part. Happiness will be achieved if we get close to finding this part, others say that we will be happy if we achieve this part but that is just momentary happiness, it will eventually fade away and once again one would feel incomplete and search again.

This is a cycle of life… Seeking something, then finding it, yehey happiness for a while then you go back a gain to seeking something and so on and so forth. It’s funny how some of us think that they are already happy with their life but the truth is they are looking for something, they just wouldn’t accept it. Though they may appear happy outside all the times, they still have something they want inside, something they haven’t realized yet, something only time will reveal.

Things done are things gone, we will never be able to change it even if we try so hard. This afternoon, my friends and I had a talk about movies and one of the movies that came up was the “Butterfly Effect”. A friend said that, things done that may seem irrelevant now may greatly affect the future. It made me think, there is nothing else we can do about the past but yet we can do something about the future, it is our actions that we take that will change the path the past has led us to. Think about the things you say or do, you don’t know which will change your destiny forever.

Things I always keep in my mind.

-”What’s past is past.”

-”Nothing in this world is perfect”

-”If you failed, someone else failed with you”

-”In these world there is always something that only you can do and there are things that you cannot do”

-”What one has done in the past does nothing of relevance to his future”

-”It’s never too late to change”

-”There are things that are better left unsaid”

-”Being quiet is the best way to express yourself”

-”Doing what is right will never do any wrong”

-”Think carefully of what you are doing, regret is the last thing you will experience”

-”If you’ve done something, believe in it”

-”A rush decision is the best decision”

-”Everything in this world will go the way you want it, if you go the way the world wants”

-”Thinking of others before you act will ensure you success”

*Kapag may problema ka, isang magandang paraan upang maging panatag ang iyong kalooban o di kaya’y masmagaan ang iyong loob ay ang makinig sa musika. Isang kanta na maaring sumagot sa mga problema mo o kaya’y isang kanta na nagpapakita ng iyong mga problema. This will never fail you, after listening to the song of your choice, you will definitely feel better after a few rounds or repeats of that song.*

Looking back is like looking forward.

Ngayon ko lang nahalata, masaya din pala ang buhay basta lagi ka lang ngingiti, wag kang yuyuko, ang tanging oras na tatama ka sa mga harang sa buhay ay kapag nalungkot ka at alisin mo ang tingin mo sa daanan. Kung may gusto kang bagay, tignan mo lang ito lagi, wag mong aalisin ang iyong tingin, focus. Through focus one can pass through the eye of a needle and overcome the greatest challenges.

Tila mahirap na iwanan ang ating nakaraan, laging may natitirang fragments ng ating mga alaala sa ating isipan… hindi ito maaaring maubos at mawala, parang hinaharap, tanging mga parte lamang ang nasa kamay natin, nakasalalay na sa nais natin ang manyayari sa kinabukasan. Mga bahagi lamang ng isang buong bagay ang hawak natin, ngunit xempre, hindi lamang isang bagay ang maaaring buohin sa mga parte, maraming marami ang mga possibleng mabuo, di mabilang na mga posibelidad. Yan ang buhay, ibibigay lamang sa atin ang outline at tayo na ang bahalang gumawa ng istorya, base sa nais natin.

Lagi mo lang tatandaan pag nabubuhay ka, hindi nakahanda ang mga manyayari sayo, nakasalalay pa rin sa nais mo kung anu ang gagawin mo sa buhay… kung minsan, hindi talaga nating maiiwasan na ihanda ng iba ang landas ng ating buhay pero kadalasan ay may choice pa rin tyu sa ating tatahakin na landas..

Kanina naglakad ako paikot ng pisay kasama ang puti gang, bwahahaha… ang saya… ambaho pa rin talaga ng creek… pero pag inisip mo lahat naman ng bagay sa mundo ngaun ay mabaho… hehehe… dba? dahil sa pollution ay tila di na kailan man magiging mabango at malinis ang ating mundo… ok lang yan, sa kada basura na ilalagay mo sa mga basurahan ay tinutulungan na natin upang mabawasan ang pollution sa mundo…

Bwahahaha… bukas ay may jade reunion… pupunta ako, wala namang rason para hindi… sana maging masaya bukas…

“gusto ko nang bumalik ang dati kong buhay, walang kaaway, walang kagalit… ung normal lang… handa akong gawin ang lahat para lang maibalik ang iyong pagkakaibigan.”

Dota time… bad 3p

Anu ba yan… andaming nagbackout… anu ba naman klaseng plano yan? Hayzzz….. ambano ko na sa DotA ampzz… tagal ko na kasing hindi naglalaro eh… hahaha… balik DotA mode na uli ako sa christmas break… tagal pa… : ((… for now online games muna gagawin ko… Free to play na pla RF… hehehe… un na lang lalaruin ko… astig un… : ))…

Kahapon niloko ako ni Dondon at Allen, ampz… ang sakit naman nung joke niyo… >_<… sobrang nahurt ako… akala ko totoo talaga… Waaaa!… impossible na ba talaga kong manalo? Sa dami ng mga kalaban, parang wala na akong tsansa sa laro ng puso… sana naman ay kahit konti ay magkaroon ako ng pag-asa…

Kahapon nagdota kami… ERVIN, MIGS, ALLEN, ARVIE, JOSHUA, AKO at si DELMO sumama rin…

First game(apnp, culdown pick): Team Senti: Allen (Lich), Arvie (Dark Seer), Ako (Viper)… Team Scourge: Ervin (Atropos), Joshua (Nevermore), Migs (Nerubian Weaver)… nung una talong talo na kami kaso bumawi… kaso maxado n malaki ung lead nila nung umpisa kaya natalo pa rin kami… MVP: Ervin, ambilis mo umipon… Si Arvie kasi di naglearn ng ultimate niya… sayang….

Second Game(apnp): Team Scourge: Allen (Rylai), Arvie (Voljin), Ako (Darkterror)… Team Senti: Ervin (Venomancer), Joshua (Pudge), Migs (Anubarak)… Yan bumawi kami sa game na ito… hehehe… talo dapat sila kaso nagquit si Ervin nung natalo sila sa clash… hehehe… anu ba yan?… tapos nun umuwi na si Joshua… sayang…

Third Game(arnp, bawal switch hero at repick): Team Senti: Allen (Clinkz), Arvie (Purist), Ako (Furion)… Team Scourge: Ervin (Gondar), Migs (Ulfsaar), Delmo (Slardar)… talo na naman kami… ampz… anlakas talaga ni Ulfsaar… hahaha… roshan mag-isa… MVP: Migs, walang nabubuhay sa Ulfsaar na double tarrasque… kinaya nga niya ung fountain eh…

Oh well… kahit na talo kami sa 2/3 of the games masaya parin ang dota… DotA uli tyu minsan… plano uli kayo at sna naman wag na kayo magsali ng mga nagbaback out…

“it’s not about winning but about how you played the game.”

Wind with water

Anu ba yan? Away na naman… wag na kayo mag-away…PLX… ^_^…

Allen, ang tanging masasabi ko lang ay feeling ko (feeling ha, kaya opinion ko to) tama ung ginagawa mo.. wag mo na lang pansinin… kung maygagawin xa, edi bahala na xa… Pero ewan, malay mo mag-iba ung meaning nung ginagawa mo para sa kanya… Ewan… >_<… Ang tangi ko lan masasabi ay pls ayusin niyo na ung away niyo… hehehe…

Ram, wag ka namang maxadong magalit, di naman intensiyon ni allen na backstabbin or siraan ka… (Ewan… pero di talaga intensyon ni allen na siraan ka)… opinion lang niya un… wag mo na lang pansinin… please… wag na kaung mag-away…

Ang pagsulat ko sa blog na ito ay ang tanging daang magagawa ko upang matulungan kau… sana naman ay wag na kayong mag-away dahil bilang mga taong naiipit sa gitna ay ayaw namin na maghiwalay pa kayo… sayang naman ung 2 years na mabuting pagkakaibigan… diba? masmabuti kung masmarami kang kaibigan kaysa kaaway… hehehe… kakaretreat pa lang… tulad nga ng sinasabi ko, God answers prayers… kung mamasamain niyo itong post na ito e wala na akong pake dahil ito ay isang daan upang matulungan kayo na magkabati, I am not speaking as a friend but as someone who is caught between the bombs of war… hehehe… lalim XD

Hayz… anu ba naman ang nangyayari sa akin, isang taong matagal ko ng kilala e ngaun ko lang nakita, sana nama’y di pa maxadong huli upang ako’y magbago sa paningin niya, sana nama’y magkaroon pa ng oras upang mabago ko ang anu mang impression meron xa sa akin. Sa panaginip ko lang nahalata, KMPS will you be my prom date?

Sana maging mabuti pa ang buhay ng lahat ng mga kakilala ko… hehehe… arvie, di ka naniniwalang kaya kong pumayat ha? tignan natin, magagawa ko to… hehehe… akong bahala… 5 days na… God please help me…