There are times when we just don’t intentionally hurt others and sometimes even without us knowing it. It’s unavoidable, one way or another someone will always be offended or hurt when one does things. The only thing we can do is to say sorry to the people who are affected by our doings, though we don’t realize it, there are things that may seem simple for us but will affect others greatly.
Nothing in this world will ever be perfect, not even those who have reached “peace” within himself… There will always be a flaw in the human system, that’s how it is made, it will never be completely functional, never complete. Whatever we do, there will always be a part missing in the puzzle of ife, a part we will always seek. God made us this way, always looking for something, seeking something. Life will be boring if we don’t have a missing part, being perfect is the best thing in life, it is seeking this part. Happiness will be achieved if we get close to finding this part, others say that we will be happy if we achieve this part but that is just momentary happiness, it will eventually fade away and once again one would feel incomplete and search again.
This is a cycle of life… Seeking something, then finding it, yehey happiness for a while then you go back a gain to seeking something and so on and so forth. It’s funny how some of us think that they are already happy with their life but the truth is they are looking for something, they just wouldn’t accept it. Though they may appear happy outside all the times, they still have something they want inside, something they haven’t realized yet, something only time will reveal.
Things done are things gone, we will never be able to change it even if we try so hard. This afternoon, my friends and I had a talk about movies and one of the movies that came up was the “Butterfly Effect”. A friend said that, things done that may seem irrelevant now may greatly affect the future. It made me think, there is nothing else we can do about the past but yet we can do something about the future, it is our actions that we take that will change the path the past has led us to. Think about the things you say or do, you don’t know which will change your destiny forever.
Tags: inner self, pisay
October 27, 2007 at 5:50 am
Hahaha.. Hi William! :D Wala lang, binasa ko. Ang emo neto ah. :)
October 27, 2007 at 2:16 pm
http://itsramm.multiply.com/photos/photo/4/3 tsk tsk
November 11, 2007 at 6:21 am
If you check my previous posts (at multiply), you’ll see where did my anger go (what forms did it take)
.. I had thought that you were very insensitive and stuff and I jumped into conclusions.. (nervous laugh) :)
Please just be more sensitive to others because, like in my case, you had hurt me (“…there are things that may seem simple for us but will affect others greatly.”) gravely that I did a very strong invisible retaliation though you did not mean it. I had locked it in me, hoping you’d somehow prove it false; I waited in vain.. What I’d hoped never happened so I did some drastic actions; I stretched what other people answer to me (because I do keep a keen eye and tongue about my friends and I observe them down to their very last detail..) far too wide.. I set myself on a fire, too hot for its flame.. I froze myself in a prison of my own indifference, all directed to you.. But some part of me diminished this; some part that I thought hadn’t existed.. A part filled with sense.. not the sense for sense’s sake.. It nullified my weakly supported interpretations of your actions.. It made me see the light, when I was blinded, when I refused to see it.. I reminded me of what I was constantly reminding myself but in a different perspective; of what had repelled Mg: Dahlia. It told me to forget the times when I thought you were “OP-tizing” me, of the times I thought you were blocking me out of our conversations.. The times you had left me alone and ran off with your new friends and classmates.. I always knew you hadn’t meant all these things.. But that did not stop me..
PS: Do not think that I am being a hypocrite; I am always oversensitive towards my friends and other people..
I make colossal assumptions (I loathe that word..) from their microscopic actions.. I truly observe them down to their smallest characteristics.. I have always been like that.. I also constantly berate myself for my own faults..
If there was someone you could associate with the word “self-disgust”, that would be me.. ->The Frost Falcon